So, i guess i made a mistake....again.

When i said that i was so happy how i changed my response to planting the lavender bush, she said,

""That’s your ego talking, Ego based living.
“Look at me” “Praise me because I did great “
Over and over and over again.
Ego wants to be praised.
Get out of that way of living!"

So, she has repeatedly labeled me a "Narcissist" because i seek input, or praise, as a way to improve my performance.

I found this online:

"Narcissists rely on praise and admiration to gain a sense of emotional stability that they did not receive in the past. Accumulating these compliments not only satisfies this but also fuels their grandiosity and ego..."

This has really got me thinking that i need to realign some of my personality traits.

Being dumped destroys your self-esteem and it makes you so unsure of yourself to the point you question every move.