I'm feeling sad tonight. I don't usually post about my lows here anymore.

But I need to talk.

I'm feeling very alone.

I'm not sure where to start. I'm literally alone atm.

I visited my aunt earlier. It was just ok. I get the feeling she judges me for quitting my job. Sometimes I just feel bad around her (when that's the topic).

I quit my job in June. I'm looking for work now, yeah.

I think the main thing tonight, is I feel alone and lonely.

I need to be around other people. A community that resonates with me.

And there's...things I can do. To help myself. To feel more connected. They aren't things I feel like doing. I'm very unmotivated to go back to the knit group, and check out that Barre class. But I think those are things I need to do. Like taking medication - it's hard for some ppl to take their meds consistently to be well. For me, it's hard to be social even though it will help me. It's hard to *want* to be social. And I act on that (i.e. I sit home instead). But this causes loneliness.

It's important to be with the *right* ppl, too. If you're with the wrong group you may feel more lonely.

I'm going to go to the group. The class. Etc.
God knows I didn't have the energy to when I was working and in school.

Thanks for listening.