I walked a 19:31 mile! Fastest I’ve gone so far. I started out averaging 23min. I guess even though I haven’t seen as much weight loss as I’d like things are indeed moving in the right direction! I’ve improved with the bingeing for sure. I’ve gone from bingeing almost every night to just once a week. Eventually I’ll be able to kick that once a week out too. Being stable really helps things because I binge when I’m depressed, mostly. This week I was in a bad mood due to a bad round of PMS so I binged twice. But still, better than almost every night. I also skipped the gym for four days (again, PMS) but in the last two days I’ve taken walks outside.

My grandma is doing as well as she can be, my mom said she’s going to stay with her for a couple of weeks at least. My mom quit her job officially. She’s not going back even for two weeks notice. Good for her, at almost 64 she certainly doesn’t need corporate drones half her age coming in and criticizing her for how she does her job. Especially after working there for like eight years. I think I’m going to let her decompress until ESY ends on august 3rd and then I’m really gonna start pushing her to start cleaning up and getting rid of stuff. I’m gonna try to take it as slow as possible to not overwhelm her, but the siding and windows need to be done by winter so we’ll have to get a move on.

I have an ECT treatment on Friday. I think I’m ready to space it out to once a month. Im doing really well and I made it almost the whole three weeks with no depression. Depending on how tomorrow and Friday go. I really never know how I’ll be day to day, sometimes I’m just peachy for weeks and then the next day I just wake up and want to curl up in a ball in bed. I hate how unpredictable my bipolar is. But, that’s why I take it day by day and try to enjoy my good moments.