Really trying to not get upset by your response to me saying that maybe I’m too broken, too crazy to get better and maybe this is what my life is always going to be like. Telling me that no we can’t know whether I will ever get better and life might always be like this but I just have to hold hope that things will improve was pretty stinging.
Like I get what you’re saying, there are no certainties when it comes to therapy, but it kinda felt like you were saying that I am broken and crazy. I don’t know what I wanted you to say as you know I’m not a fan of toxic positivity but that felt a little brutal.

And then your response to our conversation about suicide and me asking you whether you would even care if I ended it all and your response of ‘it makes me sad that any human being would feel like there was no way out and choose that option’ felt like a cop out. You always do this, make it clear that I’m no more important to you than any other human being. That you don’t care about me any more than any other random person.

I sometimes wonder if you do this on purpose to cause ruptures as you know I’m stupidly sensitive and pathetic I am when it comes to stuff like this.

I hate therapy. It feels to hard.