I know this is painful for her. I can feel it.

But, im barely functioning with my emotions in this present state. Its a miracle that my work family loves me or i wouldn't have survived.

To me, i see the divorce as closure. Marriage should be based on love, not the need to have access to my income.

If she moves back east, and we are still married, im quite likely to want to go and visit and that's not the separation she is telling me that she wants.

I feel painted into a corner, but mostly just really, really sad.