Thanks Christina and BabyG. (((((((hugs))))))))

I think one of the main reasons I'm having such strong urges is that I feel insignificant to other people right now. Being at home from college brings out the worst in me and isolates me from those I love.

Plus, I feel all these feelings and want to cry, but can't. In the not-too-distant past when I still cut/burned, the way I got those feelings to stop swirling around was either by crying or by SI: when option A didn't work, I pusued option B. Now I've been feeling so miserable for so long--essentially since I got back home from college--that I'm just dying for a release... I don't know what to do.

I've been able to divert my urges by exercising, but I don't know if that'll keep working. What do you all think?

Thanks so much for your support; without you, I don't know where'd I'd be right now...



Take care,
J