My T doesn't do any physical touch either. It's probably the biggest downside to him I think. I understand why he was like it in the begging, but it's strange to me that it hasn't happened naturally over the years. It feels super awkward if I start crying or have a meltdown, he just sits there not even acknowledging the tears. So I try not to cry, if possible. Sorry there's no advice here, I just wanted to say you aren't alone.