I understand being sober isn't bad, but you hit the nail on the head when you said it doesn't seem like it in the beginning because getting sober is pretty fking hard. I don't think I've had a positive feeling since the last time I drank.

I'm starting to think I'm not "a true schizoaffective." It's probably all substance induced. I think I just get a bad emotion, maybe a little more extreme than the nonmentallyill bear because trauma, use to escape, and boom, symptoms.