Today, we worked in the garden, we planted more plants and i washed her car, (which she always says shows more love than flowers to her.)

After we were done, she showered - which is where she meditates - and she asked to speak with me.

I took notes to share with my therapist.

She said, "In the shower, i received a word from the Holy Spirit that our life together is over. There's nothing 5 years of separation will fix. I've been hesitant to let go all the way, but I'm very certain now that our journey is over.

I received a vision of you in the future at the law firm and you were happy and everyone loved you and understood you and your conversations were effortless.

The message i received was that your soul craves notoriety, achievement, status and power.

I once thought the firm was "our" destination. Now i see that it was our last stop together. This is where your soul rises to its full potential and i also rise to my own potential.

I want to experience more in the spiritual realm and teach others to find this path. My soul is on a much higher path, a much higher vibrational frequency, and this "difference" in our soul paths is why our communications are often so uncomfortable.

But, in the realm of law, the quirks that annoy my spirit make you brilliant. People understand you and everyone comments on how smart and humble you are, and i think that's a genuine part of you, but our souls were always in conflict, so we never relaxed around each other.

I believe we will be together again in the next life, when we have both healed, but we cannot move forward together. This only brings suffering because our soul contract has expired.

I love you and you gave me the very best years of my life. I recall you carrying me to and from the toilet after my surgery. You were my hero. But as we grew, we took different paths. We drifted. We changed.

Sometimes people drift apart and the back together.

I do not see this happening with us.

I want to live off the grid in nature. I want to grow my own food and connect with mother earth. I have no sexual desire whatsoever, not for anyone. I have a strong desire to live alone and be with my grandkids.

You love comfort, the convenience of cities, the neatness and order, and this is because your mind follows logical order. You love writing poetery and exciting a woman's mind. You can play a woman's body as skilfully as you play guitar and you deserve to enjoy that. All of that was wasted on me.

I see a woman in your future. Very dark and exotic looking. She will become your number 1 fan and she will stand beside you and support you in this new journey. She will match your sexual desires and she will be totally smitten with you.

Your future is very bright and involves many things, but its all connected to your work in the realm of law. That is your calling.

Its like we boarded a train 10 years ago. Today, we are getting on different trains going different directions. We can still see each other's train off in the distance. We can still hear the whistle. We can still see its lights.

We will never be far apart. Our souls made a rare and beautiful connection and in that respect we will always have fond memories.

I will always reach out to you to see how you are doing. Its up to you if you accept that call or not, but i really like you and i deeply love you. I enjoy hearing from you. I always want to stay connected on that level, if you allow me.

I didn't like the arguments or the confusion, but there was a lot of good that came out of us coming together.

You deserve to be near people who admire you. People where you feel like conversations are natural and easy.

I never understood your love of music and performing. You deserve to be with someone who does.

You deserve to have someone who supports your dreams.

I thank you for the lessons you taught me, no matter how painful. They've made me a better person. Now, i feel like i have to jump off the wheel of karma. The lessons are over for now. There's nothing to stay married for.

Our time was only for a season, not eternity.

I learned a lot from you and you from me. Every experience was preparing us for the next step of the journey.

I think, that if we can see this for what it really is, and learn from it, we can move past it without regret.

It was wrong to hold on to hope and expect you to wait for me. 5 years would bring much healing, but it would also bring more change, probably driving us even farther apart.

So, in the days and weeks we stay together for our mutual goals, we can enjoy much happiness if we choose too. We can choose to celebrate our life together or be angry because it did not work out.

You owe me no commitment. You were faithful to me and you kept your promises. But, its time for you to get on your train and find your future.

You have medical/dental/vision as long as we remain married. When you are ready, we can divorce. I won't make that unpleasant. But, you shouldn't feel like you need to wait until we divorce to enjoy another woman. When you find her, tell her about your life. I would back all of this up if i was ever asked and my text messages prove these things to be true.

We will always be in contact as we move forward. I will always be here for you and you for me."