I used to trick myself by saying, "if I take my meds in the morning it will get rid of the bipolar, so I can go ahead and drink at night because the meds would have worn off and it won't be so bad, they're technically not mixing."

Talk about chaos!

I hate to say this, but I ended up in jail for 10 months and rehab for 14 months because I refused to stay sober and kept mixing my meds with substances. I wish I could say meetings and AA helped but I can't buy into the brainwashing aspect of it, which is of course, just my opinion.

Today I am sober two and half years and living my best life. I take my meds regularly and sleep very well. Everyone finds their place in their sobriety different; it just takes hard work. I wish you the best, I know you can do this.