I attend AA meetings @LadyShadow, but don't think it's brainwashing. "Take what you need & leave the rest," is one of the mottos in the program. If I I don't agree with something, I speak my own truth. I'm an athiest, so initially found references to God annoying. There are many good messages around the tables of AA, though. I choose to focus on the fellowship. Congrats on your extended sobriety! It doesn't matter how you do it, as long as you can cut the chaos out of your life.

The using dreams really suck, @insideoutsider. I haven't had one in several years, but I remember waking up, heart thumping & in a cold sweat. Nasty business!