I've been sober for a few 24 hours but I still get tripped up sometimes...I don't drink, but I still can still get into "stinkin' thinkin." I may sound like I've been brainwashed by AA, but I can't afford resentments. I've got fire in my belly today; the kind that would have sent me out drinking in the past.
I have a friend I go to baseball games and concerts with several times a year. I called & left a message to let him know what he owed me for a game we went to Saturday. I bought the tickets all the way back in March, which is a long fking time ago. He said he paid me back in March, which I didn't recall. It wasn't so much the fact that he thought he paid me, but it was the accusatory tone in his voice that shocked me. We've been friends for over 20 years, and his friendship was worth more than a few bucks to me. I'm not going to call him back until I settle down a bit...I just hate carrying around this resentment.
...So I thought I'd do an emotional drop here. Thanks for reading.