Hi R,

God knows if I'm going to be able to stick to the plan we have arranged for the first session back.

Thinking about hearing his voice after all this time feels really hard.

Who the hell and I holding it together for...and what am I trying to protect myself from?

There's a reasonable possibility of me becoming soluble, but I know that you can handle it.

The question is whether I can.

See you in a few weeks.

Take care,

Lost