@Blue_Bird:

I'm sorry to hear you are struggling. You are certainly not a burden. You even volunteer! You have to have a good heart to do that. Please ask for help. Please ask for support. People like you make the world a better place. Let others have the opportunity to prop you up in your moment of need. Sorry to hear about losing your psychiatrist. That's probably making your current distress all the more difficult. We're here for you always and reach out to any other supports you have to comfort you until you connect with your new psychiatrist.