Went to bed at 4:30am. I wanted to wake up early, but dreaded doing "morning tasks" (To get ready for the day) - Many schiz people can barely do those, at least I can do them.. So I guess I should feel accomplished. Cuz I never used to do them, when I was really sick and screwed up.

But I can't stay up late anymore. I need a lot of sleep. And even though I feel a perfect mood and mental state/the greatest, without problems (At night), I'll just have to accept it.

Or something can be done with my psychiatrist idk.. I felt like I was getting skinnier (Without the olanzepine) idk. I'll try again (5mg of olanzepine), without it (And replace it with 3mg Invega pills at night), and just take the olanzepine as PRN.

The Vyvanse and Dexedrine is a real issue.. I'm quite tolerant to massive doses. If I were taken off of them, I'd get some dystonia (By day 2), possible heart irregularities (Like how people can die, during crystal meth withdrawal, in their sleep). It will have to be lowered SLOWLY. That's all I ask.

I'm very vulnerable, with these meds. And I hope people listen to me. The biggest problem in my life - Is that I either didn't say anything, and let abuse or malpractice happen, or that (When I did?) - No one listened to me. Especially cuz I was too young.