I didn't do as well today as i had one pop... and chips. It was about 5:00pm tho, so reasonably late in the day. It gives me trouble if i have it early in the day. I was just sitting on the sofa, doing nothing, feeling bored and deprived, and i darted down to the convenience store. So i guess i am making unhealthy food choices out of boredom and unhappiness. I've struggled with these issues mightly, without success, so i don't know what the fate is for my project of eating healthy and getting off pop. I really felt good after tho, like i was high. Oh, the pleasure, oh the relief! I attended a ZOOM support group and really enjoyed it, coasting on my high. The convenience store is closed now, so i know that's it for the day. I did eat veggies and protein earlier in the day, so i was sort of all-over-the-place with my eating today.

My doctor and i decided to do an exam in his office, a blood test, and a stool sample test. The exam went well, no issues. We'll do a colonoscopy if my tests results so indicate or if i have another episode of rectal bleeding. Thanks Buddha and Nammu for the info that they are not bad at all. I feel more confident that i can handle one, if it comes to that. Sorry to hear, Mountaindewed, that your endoscopy was so terrible and that you're in pain again. That must be so unpleasant. I heard Sinead O'Connor died too, and she's always been a favorite of mine. We were exactly the same age, 56. She was so passionate, such a warrior. It was reported that she had bipolar, also. The cause of death wasn't given.