It was only a 2 hr nap because H woke me up, but I am feeling a little better. More grounded.

The infertility stuff is really hard for me in general, and now with L pregnant... I've never had anyone to process it with. Everyone walks on eggshells around me with this. It sucks. And my house is not a safe place to cry because my dad and H do everything they can to make me stop. They don't care that I might actually need a good cry.

I am hoping to try to get pregnant one more time. H has an appointment in September to see about getting testosterone supplements? And I also have an appointment in September to see if I can get on fertility medication. I just have doubts about my appointment. I'm considered so high risk. From my age, diabetes, high bp, psych meds, and PCOS, plus already getting a huge cyst from the last time I tried meds. I just want to try one more time. I just want one more chance.