I'm not sure when, where and why it all went so completely south for me. I've always been a hard worker. Over the last four years I have found it hard to work at all. I'm.on a disability support pension and our economy is in huge trouble. Unless you are holding down two jobs that pay relatively well or one job that pays relatively well, no one can possibly live comfortably anymore. Homelessness has soared to massive and catastrophic heights because people are not able to afford to pay rent due to inflation and unreasonable rent increases that people just cannot afford.

I know because I was homeless. I've been off the streets for about 10 months now and am still trying to recover. I'm.a writer and a damn good one at that even if I do say so myself.

I'm just not sure what's really going on with me. Pressure, people pulling me in directions I don't want to go, really worried about the economy, stress, depression, not sure what's happening but I just can't seem to get out of this horrible rut and I'm not sure what to do.

Some days it takes all my energy just to have a shower. Sometimes that is all I can do for the day. I've left social media completely and I'm glad about that. I no longer read the news or watch what is going on because it's just too much.

I do have low self esteem and low self worth. I know it's not going to be overnight that I get out of this rut but I'm feeling overwhelmed and scared. I don't know where to even start in order to climb out of this rut I'm in.