((((RD)))) I’m sorry as I can see that your self esteem really took a beating. It’s very hard to wrap ones mind around a narcissistic addict/alcoholic. It’s hard for both the suffering spouse and the children.

Please keep in mind that your wife is just playing and using these men. This is not a loving caring woman. This has nothing to do with you or your children’s worth. This is not your fault either.

Her drinking and drug use is going to rob her of her looks. This price will be paid as she moves through her fifties.

It’s going to take you time to grieve the loss of the illusion you had of her.

Are you moving to get the divorce? Once that’s done it will help you feel freer.