I am sorry. You aren’t broken. You are fulfilling one of the most honorable role, role of a parent. What she does or doesn’t do is of no importance.

Honestly I recommend you stop looking at her pictures and agonize about her looks. There are ton of incredible looking women who don’t use men for money and don’t discard their kids. Her looks have no special meaning or value. It’s not like she accomplished PhD in Harvard or discovered cure for cancer. She got good looks. Boohoo. Who cares really? And some desperate men will send money to women who don’t even look good. Plenty of good looking women are decent human beings. Focus on human qualities, not her looks. She’s not a good person.