Also should mention that I am switching psychiatrists on Monday so hopefully the new one will have a new (better) opinion. I just want to feel grounded again.

I feel so out of it in general.

Also why in psychiatry is there such a thing called "compliance?" I have always wondered that. It's like the psychiatrist is supposed to know better than the patient what is good for the patient. That idea has always sat badly with me.

Postscript: I just think I'm depressed.