I’m trying to incorporate DBT into my life more. Especially mindfulness. Sick of the intense emotions. And mood swings. When they’re good they’re amazing and to the point of euphoric but when they’re bad they’re rage and suicidal and self hatred and crying etc etc the up and down and all over the place drives me nuts. And the dissociation. I actually had the urge to today to try and snap myself out of the dissociation. I used to do that a lot in my teens and early adulthood but haven’t in like 10 years. Which is why it was weird to feel like that today.

I just feel urges to punch stuff, break stuff, punch myself in the head, etc. I’m really sick of the intense emotions. Idk why but they’ve gotten really bad again over the past 3 or 4 months.

Anyway , I’m reading the book the Tattooist of Auschwitz. It kind of puts things in perspective. When little things set me off. Like really, these people had nothing and everything taken from them and so many killed and many still found ways to help one another while in concentration camps with acts of kindness. Even in all that horror

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