I've asked L similar questions. One, if she's ever lost a client to suicide, 2. Has she ever had someone close to her commit suicide. And 3. How would she feel if I died. She answered each one. I'm only willing to share 3. She said she would be devastated if I died. She would grieve, but it wouldn't destroy her either. I know this is true because I had a health scare, and we were both devastated by the news. She even asked my permission to share with a colleague of hers so she could get some support. When we've talked about if I committed suicide, she said that she actually had a fear that my family would sue her.

But I think death, whatever the cause, affects people in general differently.

I also know L lost someone close to her about 3 years ago when we just started. She grieved and coped. She took care of herself, and she was devastated. T...I don't think T would grieve for me as much as L would. We weren't as close as I am with L. T never shared how she would feel, but I also don't think I asked her.