I am the O.P. I am going to step out of these forums for a while. I have said enough I feel and I have determined that speaking about it all as much as I have in this thread and one other has been enough. I need a huge break from talking about it all as I can feel myself just getting more and more stressed and unwell. I was hoping that by talking about it, it would help but it hasn't. I also have no energy to offer support to those going through their own tough times. I truly just need to give myself a break and move on in life.