I think I can relate somewhat to this. I was about to reply to another thread but noticed the OP wanted to ''step away'' so out of respect I didn't reply. It was about complex grief I think. And that is part of my experience, complex grief.

I have been avoiding certain social get togethers IRL for a while now. I don't exactly think people = bad but on some level maybe I do. Or rather, more accurately, those groups of people = bad for me to be with. The people have not been understanding of me or even that friendly, to be honest. And I do not believe I did, or didn't do, anything to ''deserve'' what feels like that lack of respect and appreciation from those people I do not find their behaviour towards me endearing.