You were posting about your marriage for years. It’s been unhappy and dysfunctional for a long time. When you say you want to try again it sounds as you are addicted to dysfunction. If you tried again, it wouldn’t miraculously become great, it would be more of the same.

Maybe I am confusing you with someone else but I thought she said she wants you to stop pursuing her. So it would be unwise to chase her. And I don’t recall you ever mentioning any of her outstanding qualities. Just looks.

Longer you think about her in a romantic sense longer you’ll suffer. You need to reprogram yourself