I just looked up your old posts. 3 years ago she was calling you names and was repeatedly kicking you out of your room and you were researching divorce and calculating how much it costs you.

When people start researching divorce (for a good reason in your case), marriage is over. It’s done. But 3 years later you are still chasing her but she’s still the same person. This is still the same dysfunctional marriage.

You are in love with an idea. Not with a real person. You want a happy marriage. You could have it. With a different person