I have no experience with combat, so I don't know if I can be any help, but regarding what you said here:

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My war is long gone. I'm not supposed to be affected like this. *tears

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> The first post I made in the PTSD forum I was thinking along the same lines, and the first reply I got back told me "There is no 'should' in what bothers us". Don't let anyone tell you you're not supposed to be affected - it's completely understandable; you've been through a lot!

Hope you feel better soon. (((Troy)))