Part of your last post wasn't showing up before. It sure sounds like there's been plenty of turmoil. Bottom line: this became a loveless marriage. You might do well to throw yourself back into your music. Do what satisfies you. Get some joy and pleasure out of life. You're not a kid. Don't waste what good years you have left staying embroiled in stupid arguments. She needs to go plant her garden off the grid, and you can't pretend to like that, when you don't. It's lucky for you that you have your own passionate interests. Pursue them. Be who you are.