(I'm sorry if this is the wrong subforum, I'm not diagnosed with anything yet I just started therapy and I know I am feeling depressed)

On Friday my therapist and I discussed my suicidal ideations and she mentioned the hospital as a last resort.

I'm actually feeling good today, but I'm not sure if this is just a clear moment and my chance to seek help or if I'm getting better and I don't need to seek help. Last night was a rough one and my bestie said I did not look well at all which is saying something because I can usually hide things like a pro. I don't know how work will go tomorrow either. I'm a vet assistant so I see lots of happy and lots of sad and I don't know if I'll be able to take the sad.

I just don't want to take up a bed that someone that's actually struggling could use.