back from hospital.
feel so stupid, so so so stupid.
so hard to use words, so hard to say what happened and how i feel without getting in trouble.
don't want to get into trouble.
feel like it doesn't matter... could have been trapped in that hospital forever, alone, no one would have cared.
hate hospitals so much... had to have emergency surgery.
have to stay in bed now.
all this stuff bundled up inside, can't say it most of it.

sorry i'm back again.
a lot i want to post but tired a lot, sorry.
so much... depressed... not just depression, so many other issues.
sorry.