that's a good point, thanks. another thing to add to my list of 'things artie just needs to accept'. I am getting a little better at managing my reactions anyway, at least as far as this time, I noticed it was happening and didn't go into the mindless eating like i would have in the past. I noticed and did what L would have suggested - wrote, went for a walk, & shared about it in my coda meeting last night. I made it through the day/night without lapsing into the old behavior.