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Originally Posted by comrademoomoo
I am really struggling with my work around childhood sexual abuse. It is painful working with the brutality of what my life was like back then (even without digging into the specifics during sessions) but then the additional layer of the relational stuff between me and her feels dreadful. It's humiliating to want to matter to her, to want to ask her if I matter. On one level, I recognise it as a natural human need (and thank god that hasn't been totally knocked out of me), but I also feel degraded. I am already splayed open and then needing to ask if she cares about what she sees is nauseating. Maybe I will start a separate thread about this.
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Maybe it would best to stop for now or go much slower with this topic.
Feeling degraded and humiliated are painful places to be. Some might say it gets worse before it gets better, but there are other alternatives to therapy and healing. Therapy is simply not for everyone. You don't have to white knuckle through it.
Listen to your gut feeling and let your intuition guide you.