Just caught up after a few busy weeks.

Can fully understand how you feel. You don't seem like a person who can turn off your feelings overnight. Despite what you and your kids have experienced, you still care however misplaced it may now seem. One point that many have made, if you get back together she will not change.

You have a lot of practical and emotional issues to handle. Yes, it's also natural to regress.

I don't have anything to add to the discussion but my thoughts are with you and your kids during this difficult time. My message is stay strong!