Feeling down. I was so excited last night because at the mall i ran into a guy from my mental health drop-in who is new and we had a nice chat. He's pleasant and nice-looking and he smiles -- so unusual for a man. But i've crashed from the excitement and realize i may never see him again. I still get excited about romance, beyond all reason, even when my divorce nearly killed me. Oh, well, it's not like he asked for my number or anything. He's probably that friendly to everyone.

I guess i am just lonely. And i can't even comfort myself with a pop.