T: I am definitely sad we will be ending shortly, but I do feel more settled and maybe ready to move forward without you completely along with me. I like that you said it doesn't mean I can never see you again, but it would be more of an adjunct thing, than weekly.

E: I have spent the past 3 days in high anxiety, plus a panic attack, and plus, well you know what it is. I was SO terrified that I was going to walk in today, and you were going to be like "Well, on Sep 1, we will have to terminate." I knew I would not handle it well. I did manage to tell you today that I feel like our work isn't done, not remotely close, most likely. That the loss of Jack (my cat), and then the ongoing crisis of my chronic pain in my feet, we have been off track. I am tired of us just constantly putting out fires. You told me the psychological name for that, but I forgot. I do feel better that if/when we do terminate, it will be a mutual decision. She will never just blindside me by telling me we are done, even despite my financial situation. I know that doesn't mean I get to see you for free forever; really probably not much longer, but I feel like at least I have some control of all of that. And you didn't actually say that you would stop working with me because of finances. That your sliding scale is changing in the fall. I just have to hope I will be able to afford it somehow.