ESY is over! Boy what a rough last day. Lots of meltdowns and tricky behavior. But, it’s all over and I’m off until sept 1.

I’m in a negative mood today. I wouldn’t say depressed, I’m just struggling with my eating. I’ve done a lot of emotional eating this week and that’s the main habit I’m trying to break. Less bingeing, I’ve managed to stop myself from eating a whole package of chips or pint of ice cream. But still, I have to learn that food will not comfort me. I have done strength training videos on youtube twice this week. That’s a start.

I did find out that my claims for unclaimed money that I made back in June have been approved and I’ll be getting about $4500 for money that was owed to me and my first husband (I’m a widow for those who don’t know). That will be a big help. I’m planning on spreading $1000 out between my three credit cards and purchasing either a new couch or a treadmill. Not both as I want to put some of it into savings to tide us over while RS transitions jobs. Our couch is broken (not sure how) but still comfortable, so it’s not a necessity yet. A treadmill would be very nice, one of my main issues when it’s not nice outside is I don’t want to dress for the gym and go. That’s what trips me up in winter. It’s just complicated, the one room it would fit in does not have grounded outlets. That makes RS nervous. But I don’t think it would be a big deal if I only plug it in when using it. I’ll talk to him about it.

@buddha1too

I am thinking of you and sending good vibes your way. I hope you feel better and get some good sleep soon.

Sending good vibes to everyone else as well.