I had a big disappointment today when the twice-monthly women's morning coffee break here in the building was cancelled. I was so looking forward to finally having some fun, after the days and days of chores i've had recently. One woman is particularly funny and adroit and i was really keen on seeing her. I was eager to have some pleasure after all my hard work lately.

So that was a big bummer, and guess what i wanted to do... Yes, stuff my face with pop and chips. I struggled mightily all day but with 38 minutes on the clock til the convenience store was to close i gave in. So that means i lost the battle two out of the last eleven days, an 82% win-rate. Still an improvement over every day, a zero percent win-rate, but i feel badly. It is harm reduction, tho. I had to settle for harm reduction with my benzo withdrawal, so maybe i will have to settle for my pop and chip habit too.

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Mountaindewed:

Glad you got some good sleep. A good night's sleep makes me feel so healthy! Hope you get a nice kitty! I named my dog based on her personality too. It's good you got the results from the HIDA scan. At least you have more information now, another piece of the puzzle.

WildFlowerChild25:

Happy your job is finished and you have some time to enjoy yourself. I meant to tell you that the skills you described a while ago, in calming an autistic child having a tantrum, really impressed me. I didn't realize there was a whole protocol to it. And congratulations on the windfall!

Scooter9:

Your ketamine treatments may not have made a big difference but at least there were no side-effects. You're very brave to try such a brand-new therapy. I'll stay tuned for your next steps.

Buddha1too:

So glad to hear that you're feeling gratitude! It's a wonderful feeling. I love to count my blessings! I lost my little sister too. It's just plain out of order for a younger sibling to die before you. I don't believe in Heaven, either, but like you, i wish i did.

Aurelius710:

It's so nice to hear you talk about your job! It's so rare that people actually like their job. You must be very clever to problem solve all the technical difficulties that come up!

June08:

Hope you got some good rest and are feeling rejuvenated. A full day's work is a tall order!

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Actually, i realized i was drinking an average of five pops a day so two pops over eleven days is a 96% win-rate!