I feel so dissociated these days probably from too much stress and pain. There's this strong need to post to someone because I feel like screaming for help but yet to hate drawing attention so I quietly post. It's hard to know how I feel exactly. It's kinda like everything's swirling probably from dissociation. Too many problems. Severe money problems. No friends anywhere. No family. Bad toothache almost every night for long time. I go to the store and spend ages just looking looking looking at prices trying to find something good that doesn't cost much. I watch people swing through isles grabbing stuff left and right and I wonder how it must feel to have money. It's usually a bag of $1.25 dried split peas or something that cooks up to lasts 4 to 6 meals. Guess I'll sell my car soon.