We talked a little tonight. I changed the oil on her car for her. She said that she is just devastated because she had hoped we would stay together forever, but that our differences in both communication and comprehension made it impossible.

She is very blunt and hurtful with her words and she says i "sugar coat" things, which is lying, according to her, and she is morally opposed to that.

She also said that while she did encourage the job at the law firm, she now sees ot as a "vicious" job that she wants no part of. The fact that i am so good in this arena is more proof that we are not a good fit.

I told her i would help her restore her maiden name back, which she said she appreciated.

Looking back, i gave up everything to have her because i didn't have a very high opinion of myself. One concession lead to more concessions and even though she DEMANDED i make these concessions, she ended up hating me for giving in.

I know that i could never love anyone as much as her, but do i really need too?

I'd rather have a spark and mutual respect as opposed to just blind love for the sake of love alone. Id love to have a mutual physical attraction, a romantic connection, but within a deep sense of admiration and respect.

I love being in love and im not against it, but im not willing to base a future relationship on such an unstable emotion.