i dont know you so you might be what you say you are, but chances are your not. i have hated myself for many years, thought of myself as a failure, ,horribly, boring, a freak ect, its only now im slowly starting to realise that its only me that sees myself like this, everyone else out there doesnt!

seriously, give yourself a break, take a look at the last time you remember feeling so happy you could have cried, take this memory, and dont let it out of your head, times like then WILL come back, you just have to accept the bad times in between.

it can be done, so please, dont give up, we wont.