There are Section 2030 fees in California which are statutory fees awarded to the low income divorcing party when that party can prove that their former partner can afford paying for both attorneys, their own and that of the low income party. It depends on the ability to pay. It is not guaranteed that you will get them but you can try for them. It does not seem that there is anything left in your marriage worth preserving so you are of course well advised to consult with an attorney now. You can start by going to legal aid.

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