Thank you, Silver and BabyG. Although this is a dark time for me, at least I'm not alone...

I would use this time as "me time", but one of the annoying habits I have developed at school is to work obsessively and nonstop. Problem is, when I'm back home, all the will to live and to do anything is sucked from me. So I'm in quite a Catch-22: can't work because I'm so depressed and lethargic, and can't relax because I beat myself up for not doing any work...

Plus, every day that passes overwhelms me with more and more grief 'cause the third anniversary of my mother's passing is getting nearer and nearer. I have so many feelings pent up inside and just can't get them out... I just wanna cry, but can't .

Thank you for your support. I'm still hanging on, even if only by a few worn threads...

J