Although I loved both of my parents, I've spent years on this forum ranting about their emotional and sometimes verbal abuse. So, I speak from my own experience.

It's why as the scapegoat and codependent, that I attract narcissist friends and narcissist romantic attachments; due to emotional neglect from both of my parents. It dawned on me, that their emotional neglect is why my siblings and I never emotionally connected either.

It explains why my siblings triangulate me and why the three of us never emotionally attached to each other. Emotional abuse is like a multi-car pile-up for future generations because it never stops. It gets passed on, I believe, at the DNA level.

@jesyka I encourage you to find ways to empower yourself so that you can verbally and physically create healthy boundaries around your relationship with your husband, while you figure out what you want.