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Originally Posted by rebelrose
You're good. I don't think it's transference either. I do have fantasies of something more. I acknowledge that a part of me wishes that I came first in his life. A desire for him to want me in his life. And yet it's not romantic. And I know the impossibility of it all. Just my childhood stuff, wanting to be supremely important in someone's life, which would mean they were protective of me.
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While I may sound all more realistic with what I want with my T; I think the attachment is closer to what your write here... wanting to be supremely important in someone's life.
I wish I knew why that was and why I don't get that from the people in my life.
And as much as I want that relationship with her; it will always be me reaching out to her. Or I believe based on what she has said, it will be that way.
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Originally Posted by rebelrose
It feels too late and I feel too hurt. I sent him an email telling him I had to cancel our lunch, I didn't give an explanation as to why, and he didn't even reply to acknowledge it. It feels like this whole thing has run its course and he's letting go. It hurts so much that he's letting go.
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Ouch, that must have hurt to have him not even reply to acknowledge. I'd be wondering if he even got the message and be tempted to contact again at the same time feeling/thinking like you state here about the whole thing running its course. I do wonder what would happen if you scheduled a session with him - what his response would be.