Hello,
I’m sorry that you are struggling with a so many difficulties.

You say you don’t know why you are here. I’m gonna reply. You’re here because you deserve it and because you are marvellous, no matter if some people don’t notice it, I’m sure others will do it.
You can be different but let me tell you that everybody is different in different sense. You’re not less than others. I swear.

Apart from the difficulties when being a kid in relation to social interactions and being over aware of your differences, did you suffered some kind of bullying? I ask you because you seem to have a very harm self-esteem.

Nice to meet you, although under these circumstances.