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Willcat · Aug 11, 2023 at 10:58 PM

I belong to another recovery site website forum. I was making friends with another member on the website I will call Moy. She wrote something to me in a PM about being in a group therapy session and talking about maybe some guy that was in there was attracted to her or some s*** like that. I wrote her about my experience with Santay and how we met in a therapy addiction group and kind of hit it off hot heavy style and then we became friends later. w/o the sex.

Moy wrote back that she thought I wanted to bang her and that's not what She was all about. I tripped her out. She was wondering if she has good radar for friendships and if I'm a kind of a screwball weirdo and maybe She should cut me off from communication.

That's how PTSD messes with my head

subliminally I just want to get screwed over every time I want to make a friendship. that's not fair. I didn't want PTSD when I was 12 years old when my mom messed around with me. really screwed me up in all my life. what a drag that I have to deal with it. I'm in therapy for all this stuff. so that's why I'm writing all this out…. therapy you know got to do it or die a miserable suffering psycho death… hahaha

I don't want that.

Well, that felt better

to get all that garbage out. I don't want that crap to fester inside of me. I'll figure it all out eventually. All Is Not Lost