we just spent three hours chatting about our hopes and dreams.. all our wants are in line..we even both have bpd which is now controlled and are both knowledgeable enough to help not hinder one another.

we spent an hour writing poems to each other over msn - romantic ones. And then we shared our poems from the past. And talked about our pain and traumas. And supported each other. We talked about how we want things to go. We decided not to have sex for a while - so its special when it happens. He told me he is not going to kiss me right away - as he wants the moment to be full of love. he said he would be happy to hold me in his arms and just talk.. about anything. I said:

Mandie - Jeremys First night in his crib! says (11:24 PM):
If i could pick out a single star
Mandie - Jeremys First night in his crib! says (11:24 PM):
To describe exactly who you are
Mandie - Jeremys First night in his crib! says (11:25 PM):
it would be the one that shone the most
- Christgrinder - says (11:25 PM):
the north star =D
Mandie - Jeremys First night in his crib! says (11:26 PM):
and the one that exudeded lust as i pressed you to my bust
Mandie - Jeremys First night in his crib! says (11:27 PM):
and i would take that simple star
Mandie - Jeremys First night in his crib! says (11:27 PM):
and show you just how beautiful you truly are
(hes norse so the north star has meaning apparently)

and he said:

but right now... u are the FIRST person in this province that has even made me feel remotely close to how i felt with the first person i ever really fell in love with

however this turns out, he makes me feel.. i dont even have a word for it. I mean there was so much closeness from our friendship. HE told me hes wished to be with me for a long long time but wanted to wait to act on it until he was truly ready to give me everything and make me happy, no matter what it takes.

I just thought id share the romantic stuff so you guys could go aahhhhhhh...lol

Im smiley and butterflieye