I'm finding my relationship to work very challenging. I've had the same job for the past 11+ years. It's a job that is far below what I could be doing intellectually and financially. However I am grateful to have the job at all. I've been out 3 times due to my illness. My employer knows my dx and that all but dooms me to the position I already have without the prospect of advancement. It sounds like all you want is some self-respect from holding down a decent job. I don't think that's too much to ask. As you get further along in your recovery and are more and more stable you will be able to get back to job that is right for you. I may complain that the job I have is beneath me but the reality is the job doesn't have the kinds of stresses that a higher profile job might have and I need to accept the place I have with humility and gratitude. I wish you the best in your recovery and work life.