I'm trying to quit drinking, but I don't want to bring it up with you because I don't want you to know how bad it had gotten and how long I've been doing this. I know you know, and thank you for not bringing it up more often than you have. It's not a physical addiction, but it's been an emotional crutch and I'm having trouble giving up that crutch. I wish I could just magically be better so you don't have to worry about me. I'm sorry.